Why Do You Blog?

When I first started my blog a couple months ago my sister asked me, "Why do you want to make a blog?" At first I thought the question was really stupid. Why did I need a reason to blog? Don't you just make a blog to make a blog? The last week or so I haven't really posted anything to my blog because I haven't really had anything to blog about. So it got me thinking, why DO I blog? According to dictionary.com, a blog is- a website containing the writer's or group of writer's experiences, observations, opinions, etc., and often having images and links to other websites. So is this why I and others blog? To share our experiences, observations, and opinions. So I asked some of my close friends and "followers" why they blog. Here are the responses I got.

Shelbi Post:

"Because I like to make cute designs and stuff! And I can talk about anything I want!"

Berkley Sumner:
"I honestly don't know sometimes. I like to put my thoughts out there, sometimes having feedback from others is nice depending on what I am blogging about. Kind of lets me think out my life a bit, many reasons I guess. And when something exciting happens it allows you to explain more than you could over facebook."

Courtney Chalmers:
"I blog so that I can pour my feelings into something that is just for me."

Kiri Reisner:
"Why did I start blogging, or why do I blog now? I started blogging because Alexa Call and Kenzie Morgan thought I would have a good one. I continued to blog, because I loved having a place to write my feelings, and have them be heard. And I blog still, because I think sometimes, because I help people. And that's pretty cool. But recently, I don't think I have been a very good blogger, so I have lost all of the above coolness. Blah. But in time, I'll enjoy it again."

Jess Segeberg:
"It started out cause I had a lot of friends and family saying they wanted to stay in touch, but there were so many I couldn't keep track of them all. So I put everything in one place where everyone could find it. Now it's just a hobby/journal type thing."

Amy Nicholls:
"I blog because it's an amazing way to release anything that's on your mind and it's SO fun! :) I quite enjoy it."

So why do I blog? Well, my friends couldn't have said it better themselves. It's a great place to share feelings and be heard. It's really fun, and sometimes addicting. Blogging is like writing in a journal, just allowing the public to read it. And it's a fabulous way to think about what's really going on in my life. I've found my boundary of the kinds of things I share with others and the things I keep to myself, because the things that aren't on my blog are the things I like to keep to myself.

Think about it. Why do you blog? And if you don't blog, what's stopping you?

Change Ahead

So I haven't blogged in a while. I've had a lot on my mind. Caleb came home, which has been great!! I got to pause life for a few days while the family was down. But now I've had to press play, and I wish I could just push the fast forward button. I want to fast forward to a time in my life where everything is in place.

I have had to make so many choices and things have been changing like crazy. If there is anything I learned from Snow Canyon High School basketball it is that the game is not over until the final buzzer goes off. (Those who went to Snow Canyon know what I'm talking about) I've realized that things can change in a split second.

At the end of my senior year, I was set on going to Snow College. I knew where I wanted to live, I knew what I was going to major in, I had accepted a scholarship. I was set. But that changed. I ended up taking out a student loan for Dixie State College.

Fall semester I had no desire to go to school. I pretty much failed all my classes. This semester, I'm focused on school and actually enjoy going. At the beginning of this semester, I was signed up for 15 credits. I am now down to 9.

In May of 2010, I had never been employed a day of my life, but then I started working at Tuacahn which only lasted until December. In October of 2010, I got a job at Costco. That only lasted until December. In the middle of all this I was volunteering at Big Brothers Big Sisters in the office. In January 2011, I worked at Smith's for 3 weeks, but then got offered a job at The Hilton Garden Inn. After I accepted that job, Costco called me back to work part-time there. I've made an entire resume in less than a year.

A month ago I was set on moving to Mesa Arizona. I wanted to get out of St. George and live on my own. I knew how I was going to find a place to live and I started figuring things out financially. But due to the fact that my car keeps dying on me, I now have to buy a car of my own, which I will no longer be able to move to Mesa.

This post is really random, but it's because my mind is really scrambled. There are so many things that I just don't know the best decisions.

I don't like going to my home ward. I like being in the nursery and everything, but I lack the social life I could have if I went to a college ward. But I hate my college ward too. I know basically everyone in there from high school, and they are still stuck in high school. It makes going to church hard.

Basically, I'm just lost. I'm lost on which college ward to go to. I'm lost on whether to move out or not. I'm lost on where to move out to. I'm just lost.

There is so much change about to happen in my life and I don't know if I'm ready for it.

One More Week

I can't believe it. It's been two years. My brother Caleb has been out on his mission for two years and he comes home in ONE WEEK!!!

Before his mission, Caleb and I were never really close. He and my sister were always close growing up and they would leave me out of things. (I'm not feeling sorry for myself...it's just how it was) He didn't really like the idea of the 2 of us going to high school together for his senior year so he would avoid me. When he graduated and my sister moved out, we started to get really close. We would talk about random things and hang out around the house. We became really good friends. But this was only a couple of months before he left on his mission. Him leaving on his mission really hit me hard. We had just started getting close and now he was going to be in Mexico for 2 years. So I'm really excited for his return. I'm even taking Spanish in college so we can talk to each other behind my parent's back :)

So enough with the boring stuff...Here's the evolution of Dubby (Caleb)



He's really cute!!!











And he's kind of a dork...













But he knows how to clean up!!















And we can't WAIT to have him home!!!

So if you've made it this far in my post, and you want to come welcome him home, he comes home on February 16. He will be coming to the NEW St. George airport at 4:20 (closer to 4:30, but to be safe be there at 4:20) Bring signs, balloons, anything...but only if you want to!! :) He will also be speaking at the Pioneer Parkway Chapel on February 20 at 11:00 a.m.

Paige Me I'm On Call

Everyone has a story behind their name. Some are named after a close family member. Some are named because their mother's were on morphine when they were being named. (Caleb was named this way haha.) And some were named simply because their parents liked the name. I have a very interesting story behind my name.

I was named after my dad's pager.


My dad has been a nurse for 20 years and he absolutely loves it. No, he is not a doctor. And yes, he wears a white dress and hat....okay I'm kidding on that one. But anyway! When my parents started having kids they discussed names and my mom came up with the idea of naming a girl Paige McCall because every time my dad would leave the house he would say, "Page me. I'm on call!" So I am Paige McCall Fielding, short for Page Me I'm On Call. Some people think I'm making this up. But it's absolutely true. Some people think it's horrible that my parents would ACTUALLY tell me this, but I love it! It's unique, just like me.

So I encourage you to find out why you were named what you are. You may not have a story like mine, but nonetheless, you have a story. You will be surprised at what you find out!

I Am Who I Am

As most of my friends (and even random people throughout St. George) know, I LOVE footie pajamas. What better way to stay young than to cozy up in some adult size footie pajamas at the end of the night?

Throughout my life, I've always been worried about what other people think about me. I never wanted people to be mad at me and I never wanted to do anything stupid that would make someone chuckle about me with someone else. But why? What have I been afraid of?

A book that I'm reading in my Interpersonal Communications class has really got me thinking about why I am so worried about what other people think about me. The book is called "The Four Agreements" by Don Miguel Ruiz. (I highly recommend it). In his book he talks about four agreements that we should make with ourselves to be "free."

Be Impeccable With Your Word

Speak with integrity and say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or gossip about others.

Don't Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinion and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.

Don't Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama.

Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.

Reading this book has made me notice some of the reasons why I have always been so worried about what others think about me. I am not always impeccable with my word. I sometimes say things about others when they aren't around, and I sometimes say negative things about myself. I take almost everything personally. I assume that other people think things of me when really they don't think those things at all. I don't always do my best. I sometimes give up because I'm bored and I just don't want to give it my all. All of these things play a part in why I am so worried about what others think.

So why did I mention the footie pajamas at the beginning? Well, I've only been reading this book for a week, but I've made it a goal to try and make the four agreements a part of my life. And already I've noticed a HUGE difference. I went over to my friend's house wearing a pair of my comfy footie pajamas. They are my twister ones to be exact. My friend has a 14 year old brother and his friends were over. I walked downstairs in my jammies and one of his friends gave me the funniest look like, "what the heck is that girl wearing?" Usually I would start making assumptions and start feeling stupid like "why did I wear these to my friends house?" But I didn't. I simply looked at him and thought to myself, "Don't take anything personally." And I didn't! And it felt great! I didn't care what he thought about me and I didn't care that as soon as I left they were going to laugh about me. It was a huge relief.

So try it. Be impeccable to your word. Don't take anything personally. Don't make assumptions. Always do your best.

Bedtime Routine

This post is going to be short, sweet, and to the point. It's just to share with the world about my interesting prayer with Norah (my niece) last night.

Her bedtime routine is really good and it makes her go to sleep with ease. We read 2 books, sing "I am a child of God" and "Families Can Be Together Forever", and then say a prayer. When she is sick we give her the medication and then start her bedtime routine.

Last night I needed to give her the medication, but I forgot about it until I had already done her bedtime routine. When I remembered and finally gave it to her, I tried laying her back down and she was fussy. I knew I would have to do the routine again. So we read the same 2 books, and sang the songs. I wasn't going to pray again because we had already prayed, but I knew I needed to because it was her routine.

Here's the interesting part...

In the prayer I was thanking Heavenly Father for everything and going through all of the family members, and I was wrapping up I was praying for Norah to sleep well. Well my exact wording was: "And please bless Norah that she may rest, and that she may rest in peace." HAHA!! As soon as I realized what I had just said my mind started going all over the place. I started to think about how do I reverse that. So I said, "and that she will wake up in the morning loving everyone like she always does."

I thought it was so funny! So I called my sister-in-law to tell her to make sure she was snoring as usual when she gets home. She woke up just fine this morning and ALIVE!! Haha!! It made me laugh and I hope it made whoever is reading this at least chuckle inside a little. :)

The Evolution of Friends

As I was going through all of the pictures I've been tagged in on facebook, I realized that I have had a lot of friends. Some of these friends I've been friends with since elementary, and some I've just barely met in college. Some friends I don't talk to anymore, and some I talk to everyday. It amazes me how much has changed in my short life and how much change is yet to come. So here is the evolution of friends.

Elementary Friends

These are the friends that I met in elementary school. I don't hang out with any of them, but I will always remember them. I will always remember Kyle Ottman hitting me in the face with the door in 5th grade. I will always remember obsessing over Scott Heinrich. I will always remember when me and Jessica Milton walked home from school everyday. I never see them, and rarely talk to them, but they will always be a part of my life.

Middle School Friends

These are the friends who I was inseparable with in middle school. Christina, Ariel, and Whitney. We ALWAYS had sleepovers and ate junk food together. We were all in the same ward and did everything together. I don't see these girls all the time, but I will never forget the awesome memories we made together. I still talk to them, and I love them all so much.

Church Friends

These are the friends who I met at church, but have become some of my best friends. They are like my sisters. We are all at different points in our lives, but we are still friends. We will always be there for each other. I don't know what I would do without these friends.

College Friends

It's been hard for me living at home going to school for several reasons. One of the biggest reasons is, I haven't been able to meet a whole lot of people that I haven't grown up with because I don't have roommates. But I've met some pretty amazing people in college that I hope to be friends with forever. These friends include Ashley Garrett, Andrea Marticorena, and Jess Segeberg. Meeting these friends has made college a little bit easier for me in the social aspect of college.

High School/College Friends

These are my friends that I met in high school, but have continued to stay friends with in college. Without these friends, I would go crazy. I have never met a group of people who can laugh as much as we do! We all have each others backs and love each other so much. We will all be in different places in our lives in a couple years, but we will always stay friends.

My Best Friends

This last set of friends are the most important people to me. They are my best friends. My family. These are the friends that I will always have. No matter what. Through thick and thin, we will always have each other. I love my family so much that words can't even explain it. Through all of my stages of friends, these friends have always stayed the same. I love them so and they have done so much for me.

I have so many pictures of friends that I wish I could put on here. But there is only so much room on a blog. I've missed a TON of friends, but I hope these friends know that I haven't forgotten about them, and I love them just as much as anyone on here.